Looking ahead (diary)

 A lot happened over the weekend. I’m feeling better and learned from three diagnostic tests at the ER that things could get worse if I don’t take action. So, I’m changing my diet and pushing myself to exercise more. I used to walk the fields all the time, but depression got the best of me—and I let it win.

I can get back on track.

Gallbladder 2mm stone, bone spurs (lower back arthritis), and fatty liver. I honestly, did this to myself (maybe not the bone spurs I am sure that was from retail). 

I am cooking more, I am stretching more, deep breaths! And, conscious of my breathing (stress = hyperventilation = c02 build up). 

I am going plant based 🫑🥬🥦temporarily, until I reduce inflammation. Then, will opt to vegetarian with only the goal to put fish 🐟 back into my diet. I do not care for dairy that much, because I am also lactose now. My gut will bloat, and I will have a painful flare up.

Here's the take:

• Stress can place well, STRESS on your body.
• Do not fast longer than 16 hrs, or intentionally starve yourself thinking "Oh I am overweight, I can do it." It puts damage on your liver!
• Do not entertain people that stress you out.

I learned a few things during my time in the ER and did my own research. Big pharma often pushes surgery and medication for issues that can be healed holistically. Medication or surgery should only be necessary when the body has gone beyond just struggling and entered more severe stages of damage. That’s why I want to take this approach for myself to avoid all those pharmaceuticals.

I can do this.

Manifesting Karma

 Karma always meant "what comes around goes around" in the usual everyday launguage amongst conversations. But the true mechanism of karma is the ✨️concept✨️ of which we understand, absorb, and practice. 

We speak about freedom, equality, being open-minded, etc. But do we really adhere to such concepts? For example, you can say you support open communication, but are you really doing that? And what is karma? We tend to feel more isolated or misunderstood or ( as if ) no one understands. This is interesting karma. We want the concept of what we understand. We want to absorb it's benefits but we sometimes forget to practice. 

Karma isn't easy. Lots of us want to practice what is good for us and want what is best for us. And often, those things like isolating or hanging back from having engagement can be beneficial. In isolation, I can recharge. Such is the notion of someone who connects spiritually to the creation of freedom in their personal interests or hobbies.

 Also, if you are the type to recharge by being around people, socializing-that will be your outlet. 

There is no wrong way to spend the time you choose. It is your energy. You must refill and expend it as you feel.Karma isn't discipline, nor is it ever punishment. It is the art of focusing energy 

✨️ Manifestation is lovely when we can water the parts of us that are suffering and highlight the parts of us that are blessed. 

Ultimately, it is freedom 💖 it is boundaries for yourself. Which path are you choosing? 

What kind of person do you want to be? 

🪷The karma we hear about is simply the creation of what we practice. Using the energies to enhance our experiences🪷